stairways to heaven

2008-01-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

Suddenly i feel like writing a lot. But jus plain lazy. Well, tmr results' coming out. everyone's wishing us good luck. but ish there use? The results are fixed. Well all along right after O lvls, i dint have a good feeling bout my results. So i dont wanna feel anything or worry anything le. Erms..new year ish also coming. its just plain nightmare. It just bring back memories. happy ones which become bad ones if they dont happen again. Everything is so different this year. i lost two impt ppl in my life in 2007. I lost my grandmother and him. Both jus came and go. Past few days, i've been feeling a lot. a lot of sadness. But i cant do anything le. I jus hope this year new year will also come and go asap.

2008-01-22T06:33:00.001-08:00

it's been some time since i posted. super lazy. tomorrow we are having our first econs test..on PPC, but i dont even know how to study. well..results will be out soon. and posting is on 19 feb. hais. it means we still have to go back even after registration. i tot of taking a break! ha. well, i'll probably update on the results...depends how good or bad it is. all the best ppl. (:

2008-01-15T02:07:00.000-08:00

Thank you LOUIS CHUA for finding my specs! (:

2008-01-14T05:40:00.000-08:00

DAMN SUAY!!! i LOST MY SPECS!!!!!

how come it jus hurts

2008-01-09T05:27:00.000-08:00

how come after soh mentioned him, i just see his name everywhere. i saw his birthday on econs article, his name on a tee shirt, on msn..many. why. i totally dint tink of him for a month. pepper lunch jus took away the thoughts. probably i was too busy till i dint have time to tink. but now. it just hurt. suddenly everything's gone like this.

TRITON

2008-01-06T06:05:00.000-08:00

TRITON WON!!! yay! ha. we really fought for it. will post the cheers soon. Too lazy to post it now.

Yester worked, den evelyn really treated me. ha. good rites? Teriyaki Double Salmon. Smt which i wanted to eat since first day of work, but too ex. like almost 4-5 hours of my pay. so yupp, and they stopped salmon cream pasta temporary...stupid. i missed tat...its really the best dish. erms..den cos many vjc ppl, we were really busy. saw woon chian..ha. he said he dont wanna go mass dance, but in the end he went. and i was like 'wc! i tot u dont wanna go mass dance??' in front of his ogl (which i dint noe). he was embarassed. ha. samson sent me home via cab. nowadays cab fare really ex sias. from suntec to punggol $17 plus le. and samson insisted on paying it. he still wanna treat me and huixin to dinner. -.- rich ehs. ha.

today went out with reub. watched i am legend. stupid show, though nice, scared us a few times. i dint cry! superb ehs. it was sad lars. if technology really advanced till this stage, it'll just destroy us all. i would rather die than be the last man standing.

3 dAYS in pepper lunch

2008-01-01T07:46:00.000-08:00

on the 30th, pepper lunch ppl had a celebration after we finished closing and stock taking.. Evelyn dint invite everyone lars. Ha. Well,
we ordered fried food, pizza, beer, juices with alcohol and many stuff. So yupp, i drank the juice with alcohol, den it contained vodka, so i felt giddy after tat....then yeelin's face also turned red....REAL RED. Ha. Then we ate, talked. The others drank beer....Pooja made me, eileen and Yee Lin drank one bottle of beer, it was nasty..but we finished it anyway. then we talked till 4 plus in the morning before evelyn they all left. So left Ratna, Samson, me and eileen at pepper lunch. We slept till 6 plus den we went back. Samson sent me home. Nice ehs. ha. It was fun lars. Pepper lunch ppl really rocks. :D

Yesterday i went out with Szeling and shiying. We went bugis, eat, shop, take neoprints, den we bought a braclet each..same same..den we met qian jun they all go downtown countdown. We went play pool, and i sucked at it. But sellick and Bryan kept cheating for us. Like if i hit the ball near the hole, sellick will just push the ball into the hole quicklly. Ha. den they allowed us move the white ball. Really sucked at it lars. Ha. Then left me, sellick and qian jun. We went countdown...oh my, it was CROWDED. ha. Yupp HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

today me and huixin went pepper lunch to do the prezzie for the ppl. So we went to eat with pooja and samson and yupp i got two shocking news lars. I was so gong till i waited for the wrong train. Then i realised ehs...the train to boon lay doesnt go dhoby ghaut. Ha. Went chinatown with my mama and bought clothes. EX SIAS. *faint* ha.

2007-12-29T09:36:00.000-08:00

im really really happi today. Had been talkin and webcamming papa, he rocks mans. (:

2007-12-28T06:48:00.000-08:00

Today im attached to funan foodcourt. reached there super early and Allen was there already so i helped him count money and stuff. Samson came at twelve and he looked -.- Super quiet until one plus, two, then we started talking. Worked with Samson till night. Daniel, a new guy came him. a little blur blur and childish. So samson kept rolling his eyes at him. ha. But today nth much....

LAST DAY!

2007-12-27T08:58:00.000-08:00

Today's the last day at suntec. Probably i might continue, but i dont know yet. I just realised that getting into ngee ann poly's psychology and social work requires only 9 points which ish like @#$%^&*)(&^%$#@????? Ha. Today's the last day vincent will be in Singapore too. He went off just like that. i shall not elaborate bout today's admin day at MJC. It jus totally ruined our plan to send him off. But well, i guess it's a good tings too..i donno wad to say or do if i see him go in like tat. but seriously i carnt imagine not seeing or talking to him so long. whenever im alone, i'll think of him and the things we usually taLk bout...then i'll start crying again. like now. CRAP. Vincent, you know how much we really miss you and how much we WILL miss you?? Hais. Why must you go such a far place? I rather you go back indo......

First choice subject combi : H2: Chem, Econs, Maths H1: China studies in English
Second choice: H2: Chem, Econs, Maths. H1: Bio

yupp. same as soh woon. hope same class.

yester:
we went coca steamboat and we spent 40 bucks each lars!!!!My money flew away....yupp, but okie lars. i enjoyed myself..it wasnt TAT scary being the only ger. but vincent flared up twice, which really upset me. So yupp, i guess he was upset too. i hope he's enjoying himself there. (:

Christmas eve

2007-12-24T22:06:00.000-08:00

Well well well, i wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS! (:

Yester, we (diana, vincent, reuben, dedrick, zhiyin, chuan kiat, kim hui and me) met up and went to eat. okie i dint eat cos i was full. So they ate. Then vincent used his driving licence to buy alcoholic drinks. We then went up to diana's house. I donno why, the first thing i stepped into her house, i felt super giddy. Almost fell. Ha. But yupp, they shifted the mahjong table to heer room. Her room is simple and beautiful. Love it. And she still said it was messy. Wait till she see my house. Hee. So the whole night, we played mahjong, blackjack, cheat and dai di. Well it sounds boring, but i had fun. Seriously. I've never felt so comfortable around frens whom im not really close to. So yea, we played whole night. Diana started feeling sleepy, so she went off. Reuben got grumpy cos he was tired too. But we carried on. we started using 5 cents to gamble on blackjack. And i really learnt a lot on the different games. Including dai di. Ha.

Time really passed VERI VERI FAST. We opened up the two small bottles of alcoholic drinks and finished it up. Played a few more rounds and i got to go. Got to rush to Woodlands lighthouse for the drama. Well, i was kinda of disappointed in this year's drama too. Although the story was taken from the bible, some parts are difficult for those non christian, new comers to understand. Today Pastor Rony dint appear, his son did. I think his daughter, the actress, Tracy Tan did act in the drama. Today christmas, later we'll be having dinner and opening prezzie and eating cake! (: I was kinda of upset when I realised we couldnt send vincent off. Almost cried on the bus..but i controlled. And when vincent said "Remember to eat your breakfast hors", my tears almost came out. Hais. Everytime i think bout his leaving, i'll emo whole day de. But it's for his own good ehs. Mayb he'll do much better over there.

Hope everyone also enjoy their christmas holidays. And, lastly, happy birthday jesus.

im out! memories...

2007-12-23T08:26:00.000-08:00

today was supposed to be a family gathering..a celebration of christmas for my cousin who came out. We went to fish and co. to eat. YUM YUM! Tat's my favourite restaurant. *hint hint* Ha. Suddenly shi ying called me. She and the gang were at TM. They were my primary school friends. They came and find me..i was shocked to see such a big group. Qian jun, Emily, shi ying, jun en, sellick, joel, bryan, adi, li qiang, jing ming. We went to play bball..okie, i dint play. i watched them play. It started to rain super heavily after an hour plus later so they stopped. Then et came. He was my biggest crush in qnps. Yupp you know, primary school got the match match thing. Qian jun was supposedly to be stuck between Adi, Jie Sheng and Sellick. Emily with Bryan, Shi ying with bryan, Sze Ling (my best fren) with some guy called wailoon and me with et. He grew! He was much taller. And he dyed his hair black or some dark colour. =x he got such nice brown hair and he dyed it. ha. Yupp and he's the one who's gonna leave for Aust in March. Rich kid.

So yupp after we went wash up, Sellick,et, li qiang left. We then headed to Marina Square and walked and caught a movie, National Treasure. NICE MOVIE. Really. Thought it would be boring. But yupp....ha. Unexpected. After the movie, it's already 8 plus so we went to eat then walked to esplanade and sat down..played cheat. Super funny. Emily and I couldnt cheat. First few times we cheated, we were caught. Ha. Then it got smoother. ha. Met up with Huixin and went home (:

A day with Chen Lao Shi

2007-12-21T08:33:00.000-08:00

Today's the day! Huixin and I started work, okie it's me who was scheduled. Huixin helped me with the opening. Ha. After work, i rushed to meet hx and zhiyin. Den we went Raffles city to see presents, food, and find ppl. Samson was there. Ha. So we had so called half lunch half dinner with him and Annie. (: At that time, Pooja called me to go back to help with the closing -.-

We met chen lao shi, he daughter, liuyu, vincent and diana in school. Chen lao shi booked a bus. Those mini sentosa buses...which cost $120 when only 8 of us are going. me and hx felt damn bad. But she's reali reali reali nice. We talked, laughed, ate, crazed on the bus. Grace Assembly. The church. We arrived at Bukit Batok one hour later and the drama was nice. The story is about a woman transforming her life after 4 angels, faith, love, hope, joy appeared in her dream. She was veri BAD at first and dint believe in Christmas. After that, she helped people. It's nice. Gurmit Singh then appeared and testify about his experience. His mother had cancer of the stomach, small intestines, large intestines and the liver at the 4 th stage 16 years ago. She was very very strong but because of the sudden illness, she became very weak. His sisters came to the Lord and Gurmit prayed that until after he married, give birth (his parents love children!), his mother will be well. Only after she see her grandchildren, the Lord can then take her away. And after one screening, the doctor found no cancer in her. Only after gurmit had children, her mother fell ill again. And within that month, she passed away. His father also accepted the Lord before he passed away. Praise the Lord! It really reminded me of my grandmother. After she fell ill, my dad prayed for her and kept encouraging her to accept the Lord. She was a real stubborn person, so it was tough to change her mind. And my paternal side, which is a very big family, only my dad's a christian. So it's really tough. But before she really went into unconsciousness, my grandmother told my dad that she prayed for the pain to go away, and that means she believe in the Lord. We were relieved. And one particular night, my mother prayed that since she accepted the Lord, he can take her away to a much better place, relieving her from all the pain and suffering. And that mornin, she passed away. So i was really amazed by all the things that happened in front of me. Not only that, my church has miracle services, and i witnessed the lame walked, the blind see, the deaf hear. So i believe in him. Finally today i heard what i have been questioning bout. The pastor of the church says, sometimes you think your prayers are not answered, but it is becos the Lord thinks that is the best way for you. Finally, Finally, FINALLY! Now i know why some things just wont go the way i pray.

After the service, Chen lao shi told the driver to drive us to Orchard tosee the lightings. Damn beautiful. And it is damn crowded, even at 10 plus, close to 11. She later brought us to Katong and da bao back noodles. Nice. and heart warming. (: And SO SORRY huixin, for making u miss ur last bus. SORRY!

Vincent papa is leaving on the 27th. Can you believe it??? I really carnt. I carnt accept it. Seriously. Although today he talked a lot of crap, but when he asked 'You eat dinner le mahs', my heart melted. Then when we were eating crackers, he said, 'remember drink more water later'. Wahs....really heartwarming. How i wish i really had a elder brother like him. Why mus people just leave this country. Singapore's so nice. and HOT. Ha. And liuyu is going aust too. HAIS.

This year's christmas is really damn sian. this year im like practically choosing all my christmas gifts. No longer a surprise. Sad. i miss soh. i miss yong. i miss hx.

Shax

2007-12-20T04:14:00.000-08:00

Today Hx and me did opening..so we had to wake up early. Evelyn dint miss me yester!! Sad right. Ha. It was fun doing with Allen too. He said he's very old..but he finally told us he's 20. 'OLD'! ha. I had salmon cream pasta today. Yum yum. (: ha. Then when i came back to work, Samson was in a bad mood. I almost cried. I just dont like when people suddenly show a black face for nth. He started slamming and banging things. Damn. I was also shocked when Huixin suddenly marched off to the changing room. I thought she was really mad cos she dint wanna go toa Payoh with her mama. Until Eileen came, Samson finally smiled. Crap rite. Ha. Anyway i finished till 6 and im home now, at 8! But im still moody. All thanks to him and his black face. Hais.

Tmr opening again. And Chen Lao Shi ish bringing us to watch a christmas performance at her church. Then she'll bring us to tour the country. I hope it'll be fun! (:

2007-12-19T07:02:00.001-08:00

I realized Singapore is really losing his human resources. One of my primary school friend is leaving for Aust to study in march. Another primary school friend is leaving...for AUST. Why?? It'll be tougher for us to meet up in the future le. And people are leaving for other countries. Including papa. He's leaving so soon. HAIS. It's really depressing.

Today went out with my mummy the whole day. Most happy thing is that i slept till twelve plus. Hee. And we bought prezz and new curtains. (:

yester before i started work, we were in bad mood. And to think the first person i served was...such a.....bitch. (this is one word i dont like to use but well, i got to use to describe the person). It was a girl. and i think she's worse than the guys with her. Damn....donno how to say. Pissed lors. Wonder why there are girls acting like this. The world is really changing.

2007-12-18T08:55:00.000-08:00

Well, these are the people who worked today. from left, Henni, me, eileen, huixin, yeelin, and behind ish samson. Henni is the chio bu,currently in uni. Eileen and yeelin are from nanyang girls, going to Hwa Chong Institute! smart right. Ha. Eileen will go OMG!!! when she is in panic and yeelin is the strong girl there. Samson is the Mr Nice and Funny guy. I love them. Still got Pooja, evelyn, allen, Li Hiang, Ratna and Christine.

Today went early to help Christine, the new girl to opening, but we were late =x. Ha. Then we went shop shop den went watch movie. The warlords. This movie rocks. And it made me cried like shit. All three main characters will die. And there's lots of killing scenes. VERI SADDENING. it really makes me wonder whether brotherhood is that vulnerable. They just killed each other like this. Especially evil Jet Li. He just totally sucks in that show.

Yupp, today work was okie. Just that my back hurt..and it was tiring bending and stuff. We took these photos today after work and laughed a lot. Samson was the odd one out, being the only guy and the only one wearing white. Super funny. After taking, me and huixin RAN! Cos i was so gonna miss my last bus. But luckily i caught the last bus in the end. (:

2007-12-17T06:04:00.000-08:00

OHAYOUGOZAIMASU!!! (:
Thinking of yong's reaction when she first saw me with my hair dyed, i told soh. Soh say, 'mayb cos we too guai le'. but I think it is not because whether we guai then its impossible to dye. Even the 'pai kia' might not, and will not dye. So i think it matters with the style. Just so tired of the shocked faces.
Today we had a new girl. So huixin and me trained her for opening cashier, which includes turning on the switches, doing the different drinks, filling ice box, wash cloths, do miso soup setting, grinding pepper (takes more than 30 mins), filling up the sauces and salads......its a lot of work. So i really wonder whether the new girl can cope. Normally when huixin has opening cashier duty, i'll help her and vice versa. So it's like two person doing in one hour. Now the new girl has to cope alone. It has been days since we have the same time slot as Samson. missed his laughter and craziness. Ha. Missed Pooja too. And i need avoid avoid AVOID someone. hee. only huixin knows why. It has been a long time since i touched maple too le. But papa gonna give me his account. And time really passes so fast, papa gonna leave SOON. HAIS.

I got into mjc. But im not happy at all. I don't know why. Probably there are too many familiar faces le. There are faces which i don't wanna recognise, probably i'm one face that people dont wanna recognize, but well, what can i say? Some people just bring back too many memories for me. Bad ones, i mean. Now that it's nearer to my house, i can wake up much much later, and i just need fifteen mins to reach there. Wonder how will the days go....

an off day!

2007-12-12T05:49:00.000-08:00

Today is my offday...so i went out with Rachel Yong. Planned to play at escape..but the rain just wont stop. So we went arcade. We finally bao the Jurassic Park game. Finished all five stages. Our arms ache like dono wad. Then we continued with a fishing shooting game. Our hands really suffered. But i enjoyed myself a lot. Just love playing shooting games with Yong. She always has a surprise for me. This time she made a braclet for me. Thanks lots kkaes. Love yong!!! (:

Tmr working day again....WHOLE DAY. Ten hours. Tonite gonna slp early le. Tmr can see samson!!! hahas. Huixin also happy.

a gentleman.

2007-12-11T08:02:00.000-08:00

its really tiring. This week i will do three times of closing, which means i'll reach home only at 12:30am. Hmm..today i finally saw Samson in a different light. Cause today i was attach to a different outlet, and my manager was there...everyone disliked her. She will nag nag nag nag, scold scold scold. Hais. It was super unlucky to see her there. So i worked at the outlet for two hours before returning to the outlet i was working at with Pooja to collect some things. I waited for Samson at the attached outlet..since he was going on break soon. Then it rained cats and dogs. He sheltered me back to _______, the umbrella mostly sheltering me lors. Then at some escalator, the rain was coming in, so he used his back to block the rain from wetting me. Damn gentlemanly. But he walked super fast..i couldnt catch up. ha. Then today i do cashier, short 20 cents, he helped me cover. Ha. Last time when Huixin was short of ten bucks..mind you, TEN BUCKS, he was planning to help her cover...Damn good. Ha. YESH! tomorrow im OFF. But yupp, i've got to go back to help Huixin do opening first. Anyway, yupp just gonna write till here. will probably blog tmr after going out with Yong. Mayb i'll get a new hp tmr. (: hees. Happy holidays ppl.

QI!!!!

2007-12-06T07:31:00.000-08:00

Wahs..the more i think, the more qi i am. Probably it is cause of past experience and memories, i really hate it when people betray my trust. QI man!!!!!

And i really miss him sias. It has been a long time since i talked to him. Its really just so difficult to talk him now. Either he dont reply, he give excuses. I dont know what happened. Hais. Isit just so difficult to communicate nowadays? Have i been dreaming of the past? Or isit really true? How come everything changed so fast. ARGH. Its really a 'fruitful' holiday ehs. Experiencing all kinds of feelings. HUIXIN (now you are the focus here. hahas) makes me happy. Really can take all kinds of crazy photos with her. I love those photos..though ugly..but they are memories. He just makes me sad...heart ache bahs. Papa gives me the security. Now i feel qi. betrayed. Tired of everything.

guys......hopeless.

2007-12-06T07:14:00.000-08:00

Today was so sian at work. was doing things so slowly.....so boring. huixin will say 'cos dont have samson'. ha. with samson and pooja, the place is really lively. they will joke around and laugh a lot. We will too. Then me and huixin went to pasir ris to find qien. It has really been a long time since we last saw her...she's so busy working and spending time with her family...missed her so much. So we took a walk and a drink. Once i reach home, i was so tired till i went to bed and fell asleep. Till 10:30pm. I woke up, neck ache sias. DIE. now i dont know how to sleep le.

Now, something really prove my point. Guys are TOTALLY UNTRUSTWORTHY. Even though it is a small thing, I really cannot trust a guy on a single shit le. I must just shut my mouth. Okie, maybe i can trust vincent...he's still the best papa. (:

i need a break.

2007-12-05T05:47:00.000-08:00

These few days have been working working working. I dint even get to go out with frens. That day got to meet up with soh for a while really makes my day le. Missed her so much man. ha. Well, working days are the same lors, cashiering, dish up, or serving. Weekdays are slacking days. Its the weekends. And the closing days. I dont like when im scheduled to do closing. Hais.
Today i dyed my hair. My aunt helped me choose the colour...now i feel its so light...like paikia. ha. my grandma says tat too...but ha. i still LOVE her. christmas is coming. But this year, i just dont feel excited of smt leis. i need something to spur me on!! CHRISTMAS IS GOING TO BE HERE!! *i shld feel excited and happy!!*

my legs.....are suffering.

2007-11-28T03:04:00.000-08:00

wahs. yester hx wanna meet me first before reporting to work..so we met..but LATE!! so when we reach _______ (some ppl read blogs ehs, so i'll not mention the place), we ran all the way......its lyk damn far from the mrt station...den too earli, some escalators still haven on, so mus run up and down..yester, i went there for two hrs, den i was sent to another branch to work. BORING. cos there mostly guys..den hard to tok to. so i totally worked for 7 hrs yester. but quite slacking. today pei hx go open shop..cos too many tings to do, so help her lors. den we almost late again. but leg muscles super tired and pain le, so couldnt run and stuff..so i off today, waiited for hx for four hrs with hk and sher, den we went eat!! airport to eat. so long no go le, dont rmb how to go to certain places. but terminal 3 ish beautiful. donno y, i love scenery....so yupp. love to take photos of places. anyway..working ish tough reali, but now we noe more ppl!!! and at least i need not spend a lot of time at home doing nth. i miss co!!!!

tiring...

2007-11-26T03:38:00.000-08:00

something that i've been waiting since sec 1 has just passed so fast. grad nite was lyk zooom! bye bye. soh stayed at my house the day before...we had our laugh on msn..chatting with ppl. well lets not tok bout grad nite le..everyone's writing bout it.
i tink this whole holiday ish a waste man. VERI BORING. mayb cos too used of doing jian bao every holiday..now like nth to do. reali reali bored to tears. so today i start first day of work. only 5 hours can. den hk and hx today not working, so im like the only one reporting to work alone. there's a ger eileen who taught me everything which i need to know, which is a lot. so i have to memorize a few jap lines tat they use and the menu!!! erms..im reali very scared that there'll be money shortage in the cashier..den they'll dock my pay!!! then there'll be night shifts..where i guess i have to cab home..cos i'll surely miss my last number 3 bus. im jus scared of taking cab alone. who noes who is good or bad ehs. so yupp tmr working again.
well i wanna do many tings man..jus feel so weird..and noone to pei wo do. so yupp nvm. holiday is BORING. everyone, enjoy bahs. im jus gonna work work work. (:

time passed..many things realised

2007-11-05T05:03:00.000-08:00

well, today ish the last day of the major papers. physics, eng and bio was tough, i think. so yupp, nvm, i did my best le. i realised many many things during this period. when i read the horoscope last week on eight days, i realised that scorpions were the ones who get hurt most easily, and they really cannot take blows. so i think i was at fault last time. i am, arent i? hais. it's really painful facing the facts. everything's like so different now. ppl are getting further and furtheraway from me. its just so hard to communicate with ppl now, esp him and elmo papa. hais. jus so weird.

my whole family is also worried bout my cousin who ish in boys' home. he's like...jus making us into believing that he has changed for the better. i remembered that i almost cried wheni read his first letter. it was so heartbreaking to noe he went in, he suffered inside, he realised his mistake. but recently, his ex came back and contacted him, which made everything revert back to normal. now we dont even noe that he could come out for his birthday not. his behaviour is getting bad to worse, although he kept mentioning he has changed. im realli worried. noone noes how he ish inside, only his mum and my grandma can visit him. noone noes how his frens are. i've been like writing letters to lyk encourage him and advise him, but its like, im scared that it'll bug him and irritate him. hais.

druing the exam period, i also realised how tlc means to us. she's such a great teacher. she's the HOD but yet she has to do so many tings, even if it's other teachers' job, she will do her best to help them and stuff. den when we met her for consultation, even if she was suffering from gastric, she ren and continued the consultation. she's reali a GREAT teacher. she always pray for us, but yet she doesnt force others to believe in christianity. and her hugs are great and warm. tlc ish great. and yet, we are leaving her. she will be the teacher we'll miss most.

but yupp, i can be more relaxed after the exams le. actualli i've got many tings to write, but nvm, im lazi..dont feel lyk writing much le. jus hope thoughts can flow and i can start writing someting. (:

what a week.

2007-09-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

its reali a torture. prelims 3 weeks reali tired me out. guess they had dragged the exam period over too long a period. although dint reali do much during the one week break, but guess it is a mental torture bahs. i reali gave it my best shot but it dint reflect in my results. sho yupp. its a disappointment.

but a greater disappointment was u. u jus changed like that. without even warning me. its jus too sudden for me to accept bahs. sho yupp. gonna let it go eventually, after my sad period.

my mum jus started her course, to nursing. she had not worked since i was three or four. and when she said she wanted to work, i was happy for her. but now that she has started, i felt my heart ache. taking care of the family is already not easy. now she has to work 6 hours. the most difficult is to study and to take tests, so that she can qualify to work again. well, its jus such a dilemma, whether should i be happy for her or sad?

thanks yong man. thanks a lot. without u, i wont be able to du guo this nan guan. and sorry hors, im letting u go malaysia urself. have fun kkaes. (: hope tat u'll b happy in wadeva u do and i'll b here for u as well.

yupp tats all bahs, jus wanna convert my unhappiness into words and not tears anymore. perhaps i write again soon or mayb after exams le. all the best to all graduating students.

2007-08-31T08:42:00.000-07:00

hey! to all teachers out there, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!! May you all get satisfaction from your teaching experience!!!

this whole week is a moody week for me. Probably, its exams stress, probably its bout him.,probably its bout leaving my frens soon, probably im just too tired from everyting. Jus dont feel lyk tokin or smt..den keep feeling lyk crying. Yupp, jus when i received my cousin's letter, i was happy. Thats all. I tink everyting ish jus starting to change. I would rather everyting dint change for the better in the first place, giving my hopes and joy, den now everyting ish changing for the worst, i jus carnt accept it. Hais. what shld i do ne? there's another week of prelims, and i donno whether i can take it a not...im jus going to try all my best yupp i hope everyone will do their best bahs. you too kkaes, RACHEL YONG.!!

The day u went away

2007-07-15T05:33:00.000-07:00

Tat day the phone rang, i was still at home. SHe was in critical danger. However, i proceeded to skool. and then, halfway to skool, i receivhed "Granny passed away". It then hit me that i was the onli one she haven seen for the last time. And she's gone jus lyk tAt. It was a big blow to me. though we werent tat close, i jus couldnt accept death. Probably cos the last time my family had someone passing away was when i was four, and i dint even noe aniting at tat tym. How could somone jus go jus lyk tat????

It was torture for the past few days. After skool, i rushed down for the funeral- first day. nort many ppl came but when i went to c her, she doesnt look lyk her. she looks beautiful. the days passed and today ish the last day. the past few days have been tiring my family. esp my dad, who has been sleeping at the funeral to guard the place. i could c his oldness.
my dad said tat bfore she died, she accepted the Lord. which ish a veri good ting. it was such a miracle. she was a reali stubborn person, and my dad's side have owaes been strong buddhist, except my dad. however, my granny started to believe, and my mum the nite bfore she died, she prayed tat if my granny reali believed, jesus shall take her to a place where there's no suffering, and there she went. It was reali wonderful. It was a relief to my family, as she kept going in and out of hospital.

today, everyone reached the furneral earli to help out clear. den came in a chinese orchestra, flower girls and monks. after all the rituals, we walked wif the coffin in a traditional van for a dist bfore boarding chartered bus to the place. there goes in the coffin and it was burned. it was reali hurting. i guess. up till now, i jus couldnt imagine someone could go jus lyk tat. and everytime i tink of it, i'll feel veri bad. veri veri bad. i'll miss her as well.

i hope there wont be anione taken away from me...or else i reali couldnt take it animore. ohs yars, my uncle say our funeral was counted veri grand, cos we spent reali ten over thosands on it...den got reporters. weird. i dint noe tat reporters will even be interested in tish kinda of tins. i tink they should jus stick to their job scope and nort intrude other stuff. yupp. off to work, i've spent my weekend tiring myself out onli. all the best to the rest.

council camp...

2007-06-20T08:13:00.000-07:00

council camp was on last monday and tues. as we r gonna stand down le, sho we need nort attend the meeting in the mornin, however, we met earli to practise for our performance and nite walk. den we had games. the whole camp was organised by the sec 2s and sec 3s and we had nort a single idea bout it. we had a donkey game where u hav to pull other ppl's tail and to protect ur own tail. its super funni when we gang up in our lvl. den we separated into our own groups and continued the individual games. there was one called smt tower. we had to use our feet to build a tower. its was veri funni. we beat the record of xiaoyan and cheeyang grp but carnt beat jane's grp..super tall ppl inside. hahas. den we had more games bfore breaking for bathing and performance practice.

it was time for the sec 2s and sec 3s to give their speech for getting into exco and being president and vice respectively. its was nort tat their speech was boring or smt..probably too tired le bahs..was on the verge of fallin aslp. hahas. den we had our dinner. wow. it was big surprise. we knew it wld b at volleyball court but dint noe it wld b sho sweet. its was lyk eating in a grand restaurant. thks ppl. surprise. they even blindfolded us and lead us to the place.

after dinner, we danced a little...den standown ceremony begin. they showed films of our photos and a video of them wishing us all the best......den speech time. i had a lot of tings to say..but in the end went up there dint say much, thank ms lim, thank seniors, ashwin, ivan, louis, sohwoon den blah blah blah. tish yr standown gift was a mirror decorated by the juniors. beautiful.
performance time! i rmb my first line..."Gladys philipson, 25 18 30. ms studious". hahas. it was super funny lars. cheeyang was the main actor, being a popular guy and dating four women at the same time. yupp, i was one of the women. and we found out, heart broken, but we found another impt person of our lives. mine was joseph. soh say it was veri funni when i cling onto him. i carnt imagine how it looked lyk. fazira found woon chian. hahas. den zai found jeffy.

the whole standown tingy was memorable..i tot i wont cry tish yr le...but when wydre and cherlyn came and hug us, wahs..cannort tahan. and tat stupid ivan huh..lied to me that he couldnt come..den when he turned up, my eyes suddenly filled up wif tears le. hmphs. notti guy.
forget bout nite walk, dont feel lyk tokin bout it.

nex day we went pulau ubin for orientation where they give u a map and u hav to find places. 3 hours and find 4 places. when we were bout to arrive at the second hut, it was pouring and we were soaked. den when we left the hut, the rain stopped. sho we continued and it started raining. after forth hut, it was raining cats and dogs but we dint care..since we were all drenched..jus finish it lors. but we stopped at a house selling drinks when the other grp told us not to continue. ms lim hav sent notices. yupp, was shivering...den after omost an hour, ms lim and mr cuthbert finalli send a van to fetch us...we were the last two grps to arrive at the jetty. and there we went back to skool. den we had lunch and the opening of our newly decorated council room. it was beautiful. but kinda of girly for the guys. however, hav to give credit to the sec 2s for spending time on it. thanks!

btw, wont b blogging soon or animore le bahs. sho dont bother coming to check whether i post nort kkaes.
(: all the best for co concert kkaes, girlfren, u mus jiayou. dont need scared of aniting. i'll give u morning call if u scared u wont b able to wake up!

wad can i say?

2007-05-14T05:09:00.000-07:00

its after exams! i should b happi!!! why am i feeling sho low??
firstly, i noe im gonna flunk my subjects. though i reali reali studied veri hard...i resisted tv!!!! wAd else can i do? but why tish tym its lyk hell??? hais. i reali dont want go back skool.

secondly, sumting happened at home...and yupp everyone's upset bout it...

thirdly...which ish super....
i was sho excited bout it, cos i tot it wld make her happi or sumting. i searched high and low for it...cos when it was released, it was sold out veri quickly. tat was sumting which make me hav sumting to look forward to it...the whole week. but she wld rather accept sum guy's than mine. she dont even noe how it reali hurt me. mayb its lyk wad ppl say, the more hope u pin, the more disappointed u'll b. perhaps it seemed to b a small ting..noone can noe how i feel bahs. the way she said...it reali stab me in my heart. i jus dont understand, everytym i reali want to do sumting....but it jus turn out.........

aniwae last fri went out wif yong. it was fun. heys, lets hav a whole day playin arcade kkaes. its fun. hahas. (: u rocks.

today wen out wif them, the four of us watched spidey...though ending was sad, i couldnt cry at all...wif her cryin beisde me, i find it sho funni....i was crying for her, and yet she could cry for sum movie. jus ridiculous. aniwae, we wen shopping...it was fun lars...luckily got en and ivy, cos their sense of clothing same as me bahs, den easier to do shopping. btw, thks...u two have done ur best to make it a good day. (:

its jus...nort working.

2007-04-26T05:31:00.000-07:00

i donno. when she walked off the class today, my heart jus dropped. i look at qien, she looked stunned too. i tot she urgent, went toilet. but she jus wen off herself..to the canteen. her face was lyk...thunderstorm lors. sho i jus left her alone, following qien around. she was angry too. for spoiling the mood...cos she was veri happi drawing zhu ba jie and sun wu kong's handbook..den now lyk.....den in hmt, she suddenly started laughing again. it reali pissed me off lars. everytym lyk tish, spoil ppl's mood liaos den become happi. i reali carnt stand it le. its lyk....i donno....its has been on and off since sec 1...why am i sho stupid to ren one tym after another. everyone jus c as im angry with her or we r quarreling. why??? i dint do aniting wrong. i dint. its jus making me super upset. super.

its nort safe animore.

2007-04-20T02:21:00.000-07:00

blogs arent safe to post feelings le. ppl, jus dont read and take it to heart kkaes. they are jus my thoughts and feelings

frenship

2007-04-20T00:18:00.000-07:00

well for the past two weeks, i reali had many thoughts. last week, i tot our frenship between me and her would reali crash, cos i reali reali carnt stand her sudden change of temper. however, my patience has been telling me to forget it, dont tink bout it. it has been telling me since sec 1. she's better tish week bahs, more smiling and laughing. but, i tink we arent as close le.

den came another prob of my fren. sumtyms SH *my fren's fren* would suddenly walk off without tellin en lors. den leave her lyk blur blur. den we find SH ish veri selfish. en ish nort good in humans, and bcos we were gonna hav a test tat day, SH wouldnt tell her lyk extra info she noe! she wouldnt share! cos she wanna score better. den sumtyms when ppl ask her whether she studied for the test, she said no, but actuali she did, a lot. i donno, reali thought bout it veri long. i find its lyk, normal frens shld teach each other. studies ish nort bout competition among frens but personal competition. SH was outcasted during sec 1 and 2, and now she befrended en, she hav the responsibility to play a part in it, and nort en owaes giving in. tats nort frenship le. with SH around, en and kan dont hav personal tym alone le. hais.

my gf cried and needed sumone and i wasnt there for her! reali felt guilty, cos i fell aslp when she called. hais. her fren, backstabbed her, bad mouth her. well, okie, her fren ish nort sumone whom ppl reali lyk, but they all gave her chance to fit in, but she's jus.......i donno how to xplain. she appear to b a good fren, but behind, she.... i tink she'll reali regret when she lose my gf. she rocks kkaes. and her other frens. hahas. and i jus carnt stand it!!! cos step down le rite. *i miss my ruan!!!*

theres a charity co concert in june, and i reali want to join, but it depends on our midyr results which i dont tink i can do well. hais. gotchang cheng and all the nice nice songs. but i tink lao zheng will osho cancel chang cheng cos i doubt the orchestra, wif the standard now ish able to play it and other ten over songs within a month plus. its impossible lars. i miss co.
aniwae yupp was veri xcited since last nite cos first tym sho earli come home. hehes. den super slack today too. yup lets b happi bahs! (:

dreams. sweet.

2007-04-07T07:04:00.000-07:00

last nite. nice dream. dreamt tat we were strolling on the beach. den cos many stars. we lie down to gaze and appreciate them. den i gave him a good nite kiss and we fell aslp till nex morning wors. i tink if lyk tish could happen lors.if i let him come tat day. cos tat day tpco chalet ahs...den quite late le, he offered to come to pei wo, but i dint wanna, cos too late le...later he meet into sum se lang how=x hahas. den...well...there was pasir ris beach!!!!! hahas. jkjk. nvm. (: dreams r nice.

DREAM MORE KKAES! happi dreams to all.

end of syf.

2007-04-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

actuali i've reali been pondering bout the whole syf tingy. isit fair or nort? finali i got the ans. perhaps the results hav reali shocked me, i jus carnt stop tinking bout the fact tat scco got a silver. perhaps from the xchange prog, i've reali set my heart tat it ish better than us, and it would get a better result. lyk wad lynette said, reap wad u sow. its true, i belief. but the results proved me wrong.

i asked lao zheng why did they get a silver??? he jus laughed and said, its luck. we hav to depend on luck too. some who got a silver on the second day did a better job than those who got a gold on the first day. my heart dropped. its reali unfair. judging from the number of golds on the first day hav oreadi answered part of my question.

i donno. im reali troubled. though we've got we owaes dreamt of, reaching out for, but i still it ish unfair. i couldnt get over it, i wonder how do the scco members get over it den.
i hav to put it down bahs, since its over. but the fact ish, the fairness of syf will b doubted.

towards the bad and vulgar post on tmsco blog, when someone told me bout it, my first reaction was...im sad for them. to tink they hav members of poor sportmanship. but luckily, based on other members of theirs, it brought back my impression of them. (: jiayou kkaes. we all noe u all can do it. serious.

2007-04-03T05:11:00.000-07:00

and i wanna thank YONG. thks for encouraging me. sry for breaking ur heart yester. yupp lyk wad xinyi said, u did us proud. THKS. u rocks. and i wont forget u, my girlfren. kkaes! i'll miss ur hugs....

LOVE YOU!

No 28 Temasek Secondary School - GOLD

2007-04-03T04:39:00.000-07:00

tish mornin was an unforgettable mornin. we came to skoolat 7 (and tat kenny say wanna meet us but in the end he was still at home) hahas. den we started warming up from 8 to 9, god, suona was good. reali. den P and VP gave us encouraging speeches. well, i had my doubts but i tried to carry hope! sho off we go. we waited there, den proceed to waiting room, kenny came. helped us tune. he was even more jing zhang than us lars!!! yupp we went up one lvl, waited. went higher and waited. den TIME's UP! we went it took our places and one two three. the songs were beautifully played. though suona off for jian kuai, but they were good for fen yong. THKS SUONA. THKS GUOWEI.THKS EVERYONE. we were proud. or mayb i was proud cos i tink we did well. much better than in skool bahs.

waited. and waited for results. wahs we went in, tok to kenny. he gave us hope. he acted dramatically and said he felt shiok when we reali played fen yong tat loud note. wahs. den he felt happi cos liuqin came out for 3353 bar 37. results out. we got a.....GOLD , everyone started screaming and cheering. the happiness dint last long. i felt empty. i felt sumting was missing. soh felt it too. mayb cos we did wanted an improvement from the last syf bahs. but well, i seriously felt terrible too. seeing swiss cottage...sho shock and sad. i tink they dint expect to get such a result. i dint expect tat too. cos i reali put great hope on them. sho i told xinyi to 3 cheers for them. we did it, but their reaction was the same. sho i guess, i donno. jus terrible. den some one said 'u shldnt do tat, jus shh'. i was lyk hello??? i wanna encourage them nort boast tat we got gold or sumting lors. wad de. hais.

veri happi too lars. went back den mrs ang say mayb nex fri got bbq at ma lao shi house!!! WEEE!!! thks CO for letting us step down wif glory (:

ALL THE BEST TO RICO AND PASIR RIS AND ALL THE OTHER CO KKAES! JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! :D

syf

2007-04-02T05:46:00.000-07:00

tmr's syf. i wont say aniting lars. its all up to individual whether they wanna do wad they r supposed to do. all the best aniwae. (:

good luck to JIEMIN, junen.
the results will determine all.

congrats to anglican high! (:

5 DAYS AND IM STRESSED STRESSED STRESSED

2007-03-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

5 more days. my heart reali smashed when i saw qien and huixin cried. they r handling the solo parts and if they play wrongly, tats it. reali stressful on them and i tink lao zheng ish reali adding on pressure. its reali a silver standard. i carnt take it. i REALI REALI CARNT accept a silver onli. hais. it reali suck. i carnt cry it out. donno wads wrong. keeping inside felt much more worse. im flunking my hcl and maths test le. reali veri upset. hais.

gold, pls wait for us. we r reali reali trying veri hard to get it.

'maybe i'd forget tlc. maybe i'd forget eddie tan. maybe i'd forget maths. maybe i'd forget sci. but i'd never forget this batch of seniors' sumone told me tish. thanks. reali. it touched me.

i need a listening ear. i need a shoulder to lean on. i need sumone.

fun xChange prog.

2007-03-24T05:11:00.000-07:00

i was waiting for tish day to come, which came veri fast. the xchange prog. we came skool at 7:30! but it took us quite long to arrange the chairs cos its difficult to fit in 5 skools into tat small skoolhall. and its a odd number. well. swiss cottage came super earli, and we dint reali get to warm up the whole of two songs. i tink we improved, but not tat much yet. i donno why lars, i was shaking when playing. reali too nervous le, donno syf day how. but the fen yong bar 159 part, the whole tan bo yue wen out of pai mans, hais.

den anglican choice piece was nice. but the ppl there, soh's frens say they made many mistakes today. hahas. mayb nort adapted to the change of surrounding bahs. RICO de songs, tone colour quite nice, but tai feng nort there yet. SHAKE MORE JIMMY! hahas. jkjk. their choice piece was written first, sho mean fen yong de composer copied their melody part!! hahas. swiss cottage, erms dont need say much lars. i love their percussion. the two guys reali hav good tai feng mans. they look veri shuai qi when playing. GREAT! jiayou! katong convent, hmmm i tink their girls look a bit weak. no offence. but their liuqin look lyk theyarent playin, cos carnt hear too. but overall i tink its okie. their conductor ish tpco tan bo yue de teacher. tat tym when we first saw him, we tot he veri cute, cos of his teaching methods and so on, but today after seeing a ger crying after getting scolded by him, my impression changed bahs.

interaction tym was fun. qien and qi jing dont look alike but their overall image and character same mans!!! hahas. she's cute. den soh wen to find her bunch of frens, huiling (percussion, president of anglican high), jiemin(dizi) and one more, donno her name. i find jiemin gave me a veri good impression. she gave me a sense of security. hahas. if she was a boy, woahs. hahas. den we went up hall, sho tok to rico de tan bo yue. i rmb di wei and guang yu, if im nort wrong. the rest, i carnt catch their names. but some veri shy, some veri funni. we played banana milkshake. den they turned it to a funny game. di wei veri outspoken, veri easi to tok to, sho yupp, he's nice. i tried getting the katong tan bo to join us, but they gave me no response. i was lyk toking to air lyk tat. hais. but well, after the grps left, we had lunch. chicken rice. ohs yars, at the gallery there, we saw verma! ten over yrs ago. slim mans. hahs. veri pretty. den got tlc, mr eddie tan, ms woon and ms rajah. they all look young!!!! hahas.

sho lao zheng gathered us and told us where we need to work on, and blah blah blah. and the air con was off. cinyi got bad gastric sho i ran here and there jus to ask teacher and get the keys of art room. was sweating lyk shit when i got back to the hall to play. at least they let us off wed nite, and fri nite. sho mon, tues and thurs till 9 while fri till 6 and sat till evening. im gonna sacrifice my chinese test bahs, nort gonna study dat, and im gonna chiong bio and chem tonite and tmr. jiayou wors, sec 4s. hang in there. stepping down soon le! (:

i hereby wish all skools all the best for the coming syf!

STRESSED!

2007-03-23T06:00:00.000-07:00

yester pe was crazy! torturous! we ran four runs, in between each round we had to do push ups, crutches and tat wad burpees?? 20each first round, 15 next den 10 den 5. sho total we did 50 50 50!!!! nearli died. den another class playing bball, the ball hit me twice. headache whole day. den today, woke up wif muscle ache. terrible ones. if every week lyk tat, i will die. hahas.

tmr's xchange prog. got anglican high, RI, swiss cottage, CHIJ katong convent, and us! 5 skools together in our skool hall. imagine tat. we need 420 chairs mans. hehes. quite jing zhang. hope got improvement bahs. lao zheng reali reali gave me hope tat we'll get a gold if we work hard in the last week, but i donno. im scared actualli. den super stressed up. got 5 tests plus night practices every nite nex week!!!! how to study? by the tym i reach home everynite, it would be eleven!! how to study?? chem, bio, a maths, hcl, ss!! big subjects. hais. *faint* but he said he'll be there for me, to catch me if i faint! hahas. (:

aniwae 11 more days to syf. jiayou bahs! all the best to RI too, if jimmy, u r reading. gold wors!!! sho u can show off to me again..

one week update.

2007-03-16T05:17:00.000-07:00

hmmm dint get to update since last week. sat we got tpco chalet. decided to go, jus for huixin. sho before tat, we wen to c a concert to wait for hongkun and gina. a band concert,with some chinese orchestra tingy inside. i guess i can appreciate classical music more than guzheng's one? hahas. ooops =p. it was nice. the pipa ger was fantastic mans. i love the song. den we waited quite a long tym for the two gers bfore going to the chalet. slept 4 hours till sunday! den tuition begins. when i first saw the cher, i dont lyk her le. cos she looked lyk my previous piano teacher who cheated ppl! but she's alrite lars. monday tot can do lot of hw but in the end met qien to go for eng tuition. the cher ji li gu lu ji li gu lu tok super fast, den we were lyk huh???? hais. nvm.

ohs yars. yester da zu practice, lao zheng said tat we improved!!! our gold ish nearer, he's jus bringing my hopes high!!!!! argh. but he sounds lyk he wanna a gold wif honours. aniwae jus try our best le, but i can sense we did improve quite a bit. today saw the board, in 1999, our co got gold. den 2001, dey dint write, but we got bronze. den 2003 we got silver, 2005, gold. got c the pattern? gold, bronze, silver, gold, ____. wads next? a bronze??? hahas. JKJK. we wont get bronze!! i hope nort.
today we had slc (student leader convention). woke up lyk super earli lars. we had a talk on leaving a legacy. i realised that if we reali jus leave, co mite reali collapse, sho its our fault!! cos we dint leave a legacy! we dint train the juniors to b good leaders. hais. carnt do much now since we left two weeks and after syf, bye!!!!
yea yea, i had weird dreams...i dreamt ivan was selling oranges!!! mayb cos sho long no c him le, den xiang him. hais. he never come back to c us huh!!! mus scold him le. hahas. den the other day, i dreamt i was in USA. den mummy wanna go bai nian, dint wanna go theme park, sho i cried. seriously cried. i woke up, crying. i dint expect tat mans. how come dint dream of him???

-gold gold gold gold gold gold

sad week

2007-03-07T04:14:00.000-08:00

well tish ish my sad week bahs. though the week seemed to b improving, but if i dont let it out, i jus carnt seem to change my mood. hais. den it worsen when rachelyong's upset too. dint noe how to encourage her and cheer her up. and with my sms bao, i carnt reply her all the tym. ren till monday kkaes!!!! den my new month start le. hahas. tues, kenny came to teach us, and made two juniors cry. my heart shattered mans. but i tink he's helpin us improve. though i hope noone else will cry or feel upset, i osho hope tat he could continue to help us improve. less than a month, how to improve to gold??? ahhhhs.
ohs yars, how come xchange prog change to balestial hill? hahas. den jiemin carnt show off his skool le wors. hahas.

stupid day

2007-03-05T04:41:00.000-08:00

today is reali a stupid stupid day. when the day started out, i knew it would be bad, but i dint noe it would b tish bad lors. aniwae wont say much cos dont feel lyk writing bout it. bu t well, it jus reali upset me. tats all.

if onli u knew, i've reali fallen for u. (:

hugs r priceless and precious.

2007-03-03T05:33:00.000-08:00

hmm today woke up super earli for dazu, cher lian jian kuai liang feng mostly bahs, since we r weak in tat. i broke lyk 7 strings le...since the starting of the year when ppl onli broke one or two or even none. imagine me breaking every dazu lars, especially last few da zu, lyk one or two strings broke during one session. hehes. den i find fen yong quite okie le bahs...but of cos still nort to standard yet. woot. after co, everyone rushed home to change to go to dhsco concert. it was super rush lars. when we reach dere, we were HOT. but it was worth the running, the concert was good.
their tai feng are sho..coodinated? u can c the whole er hu and cello section moving in a direction. it was sho cool lars. but i tink the suonas move too much le, too kua zhang le, lyk snake. their chang cheng and chun rocks mans. mayb cos got play the songs bfore, tats y love the songs. dynamics are good and they play together as a whole orchestra and nort individual. i dint noe how appreciate two songs, which r played by the guzheng. up to now, i still carnt appreciate guzheng songs. no offence, chuyuan but seriously. hahas. sry ahs.

P.S aniwae jus wanna say thks rachelYong. u rocks mans. thks for all the precious hugs and support u've given me. and dont ever spend sho much money on me le~!!!

cold day

2007-03-02T03:34:00.000-08:00

stupid! im sneezing nonstop now. once the weather starts changing frequently, my nose will break down. hahas. tonite sure hav difficulty sleeping le. speaking of sleeping, i dreamt of gui last nite again!!! den kept waking up. everytym i slp in my room, i owaes dream of dirty stuff. hais. ish my room reali dirty?? hmm tmr we'll b going to dunman high co concert. i tink it'll b nice since they r pro. gold wif honours last yr ehs? hahas. ohs yars, i nearli fainted when i was already in bus 3. he told me he was waiting for me at mrt to pass me my present. hahas. i dint expect tat. hehes. but fate ish playing us...well...

hmmm today i wld rather go skool than stay home doing e learn. the whole e learn tingy ish stupid. sho slow and some hw ish.......a bit ma fan to access in. but well, i get to wake up later. (:

interesting day.

2007-03-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

today ish experiential learning day. it rocked. tish mornin assembled in skool at 9:30am. den we went to suntec...for a career fair tingy. i learnt many tings...and now im interested in the new south wales uni in austalia cos got the designing course tat i lyk. but it cost $88000 over...for 4 yrs. tats crazy lars.
separated from him lors. den we wen to changi general hospital. learnt many tings mans. we went to the different department...i dint noe a hearing aid cost $3000 plus mans. den a fat person tends to snore more...cos of the fats tissue. sho best way to stop snoring ish to lose weight! hahas. den we even saw human organs...the ovaries, the colon......gross. they were preserved in green liquid. gross lors. hahas. but doctors are wei da kkaes! hahas.
den went meet mummy at TM to get some books...dint saw him lors. when leaving TM den he go dere for dinner. no fate mans. hehes.
its fun lars. seriously never knew the behind scenes of the hospitals. though dint reali hav good memories of tat hospital cos my grandma was once hospitalised there for months...and i went there everyday to c her. it was veri sad moment. but today....it was cool! hahas.

he rocks mans.

WEEEE!

2007-02-28T05:12:00.000-08:00

weee.....my dad bought sho mani dvd back. hahas. so cool. don need go watch movies le. ohs yars...plus muse cd...which jiemin recommended! (:

today - FREE!!!

2007-02-28T02:33:00.000-08:00

hmm feel sho free now, after tat freaking hard maths test. hahas. well...yester was a bad day, though i wasnt affected tat much. after kenny came to teach us, everyone :( cos he flared his temper bahs. mayb cos reali...veri difficult to teach sho mani ppl bahs. but honestly i tink cai lao shi too relax le...he shld b stricter, mayb lyk situ bao nan bahs. den when i told her to change place wif cy, she a bit bu shuang lars. but well, i carnt tink of ani way to help both of them le. sho yupp.
tish two weekends quite mani tings. tish sat we going DHSCO concert. den sunday, mum's helping me celebrate burfdae. nex sat got piano theory test, den TPCO concert the qing gong chalet. Sunday going for some nice chinese drama. tmr ish experiential learnin day! i hope it'll b fun. though dint put changi general hospital as first choice, i got into tat. but well, same grp as soh can le. hahas.
i guess many ppl couldnt solve the missing $$ prob. me neither. hais. i reali wanna noe where did it go. hahas.
and seriously i tink the 24th march xchange program shld b wif other skools, cos wif the same 4 skool will b boring to hear the same songs again. but hopefully it'll b helpful.
aniwae sry rachelYong, im super sry...couldnt get the chance to give u the hug. sry...(:
hais. he's owaes haising,but he refuse to tell me!! hmphs. HAIS!
aniwae today newpaper wrote bout a 9 yr old ger giving birth. my god lars. shoyoung. got one 5 yr old give birth le. and can u imagine having ur first period at onli 8 months???? imagine how shock will the parents b??? and sho young onli, noe tat kinda of tings le.........aiyoyoyo. hahas. we learning the sexual organs now...its kinda interesting. but too bad, ms lim dint come today. hahas.

2007-02-25T06:47:00.001-08:00

The missing dollarYou might be able to figure this out if you read it carefully.
Three men went to a motel. The motel manager said a room cost $30, so each man put up $10 and went to their room. A little while later the manager realized the room was only $25, so he sent the bellhop back to the three guys' room with $5. On the way to the room the bellhop couldn't figure out how to split the $5 between the 3 men, so he gave each one of them $1 and he kept the other $2. This meant that the 3 men paid $9 each for the room for a total of $27. Add the $2 that the bellhop kept = $29.
Where did the other dollar go?

late nite

2007-02-24T20:52:00.000-08:00

hmm i've spent the whole nite finishin tat stupid phy report. some parts of it seriously carnt find...sho forget it lors, since its exactly two pages le, just lyk wad cher wants. yupp if he dint pei wo whole nite, i would haV fallen asleep. he said someting which made me blush last nite. hehes. (:
today's piano lesson was alrite, since i finally understood sometings....die le..i realised tat there ish sho much to memorize for the exam and i hav two weeks to do sho???? hais. mus chiong le lors. today mus chiong chem test too. hopefully can do sho.
aniwae good luck for chem test and maths test =p

xchange program.

2007-02-24T06:51:00.000-08:00

hmm today we had the xchange program at swiss cottage sec. actuali when i heard tish name, thought ish som organisation. dint tink it was a skool. hahas. i lyk the skool. its white and it looks clean, compared to ours. den their orchestra piece was nice. cos their tai feng...wow. c their bass....super cute when they move. den RI. my god. i saw someone who was from my holiday tour grp. very happi to c him, cos miss the grp. not bad their song. their suona was good, since the conductor teaches suona. i was impressed by the tan bo yue since all boys de. hahas. balestia hill sec ahs..quite good since its their first tym competing. den she kept saein wad they very soft, yin bu zhun. i tink we should take care of our probs first bfore we critisize ppl bahs. i was seriously seriously disappointed in our performance. perhaps ppl were too nervous or someting...but wahs. such a big drop from yester practice.
Mrs ang sae she'll oragnise another xchange program to c the improvement and to help each skool to achieve better. i hope sho!!!!! (:
aniwae mrs ang gave us a scolding which i tot it was very true but i doubt it went into some ppl's mind. sho i wont say aniting le. i jus hope it wont drop to a bronze on tat day. lets nort put hope too high bahs. jiayou!

wad a mixed day..

2007-02-23T04:19:00.000-08:00

today was our turn for morning digest...super stressed since last week. even when singing national song, i was shivering lars. but when up dere, its nort tat jing zhang. i tink i got shiver, but its super fun bahs. to me lars. well, its done le, dont need stress le. happi happi. but when co tym, wahs...i seriously dont feel lyk going. super super tired.
den hors..my patience ish seriously wearing thin. it has gone beyond the limit. u've pushed too far. im nort gonna waste another breath reminding u tish and tat le, since everyting goes in and out of ur ears. u hav ade me give up on u. im sry. everytym when there's co, there will b unhappiness. hais. NVM! shall nort tink le!!!!!

tish few nites seriously carnt sleep well lors. ish either keep tossing or turning, or else ish keep waking up. i hav scary dreams too.....sho yupp, i tink my house got......dirty tings. i donno...super scary lars. hais.

a new piggy year =p

2007-02-17T09:46:00.000-08:00

its kinda late now, sho yupp i'll keep it short. since its 18th now, on the 17th, which ish few hours ago, i had the best day. mayb happiest bahs. though wont say aniting, but i hope tish year would be a good year for everyone. hahas. happi piggy year to all! (:

first post

2007-02-16T00:56:00.000-08:00

happi chinese new year ppl!
sry for nort blogging sho long. hmmm today stupid lars. singing tym the av crew say mic okie de...den in the end dint on. but heng too...since im seriously nervous and sang wrong words. but it was funni...cos chang yong too kept changing the words. it was cool standing on stage. i reali enjoyed tat tym the competition. too bad there's no more second tym wif soh le. hais. but yupp thanks for ur support, rachelYong. u seriously seriously rock kkaes. aniwae mayb without ur support, i may hav fang qi on co le. hais. jus barely touchin a silver for syf ish nort my goal. and i noe no matter how much we practise during tish sho short period, no miracles will happen unless the juniors reali listen to wad they hav to do. no matter how mani tyms i tell them, i remind them, they jus wont listen. i seriously hav done my best. its all up to them whether they wanna follow and do their best or jus get disappointed wif the results. the feeling of tinking tat we carnt get gold owaes pierce into my heart. it sux. terribly. erms..but well was happi today cos theo and the seniors came back!!!!! sho cool lors. den we had lunch, den we wen visit ivan at his workplace. he looks suave in his outfit. hehes. im totalycrazi bout fei lun hai now. hehes. ya lun rocks!!! his smile...wow...*dazzling* hahas. sho must watch hua yang wors! though ya lun isnt in the show. hahas. tish year valentine was nice. i felt joy when i gave out prez. and thanks da da da zhu tou for giving me the star beside the moon =p
lastly, i love your hugs too, rachelYong. sho will be expecting more from u. THANKS! (: